10 years seem like just yesterday...All the pain from the past kept on coming back as if the old scar is being sratched off to make me bleed to death.
I would give anything just to feel your warm embrace...Just to feel your love again...Just to hug you tight...
Everytime I see those people being showered with the kind of love I hunger for, I slowly die of envy...
How I wished so bad to be on their place... to mend this heart that is left so empty...
Those ten years that I slowly embraced the reality of your parting...seems not enough to heal the wounds and wash away my agony.
Mama, there's a lot of things I would like to tell you..So many things I could not share to anyone else but you...
Things I'd rather keep to myself than tell anyone...
Things that makes my head spin, that only you, can understand within.
Are you proud of me?
Are you happy to see me grow as a woman who became strong even when you left me?
Are you amazed by how I survived in this world and struggled to live for my brothers?
Ma, I am not that strong... not only once or twice did I think of ending my life because I was too weak to bear all the pain...
But I'm glad to still be alive.
Even now, I'm still enduring everything.
And I know that a big part of it, is because of you.
I may not be the perfect daughter in the world.... But in my heart, I'll forever perfectly keep a huge space for you...
I love you so much, Ma...
Happy 48th birthday... T_T
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Eureka!
These past few weeks, I kept on thinking about what the purpose of my existence is...
And now, I suddenly found an answer.
The answer to some, but not all the million questions in my mind.
Like "How do you find the right reasons to smile?"
I guess it's the APPRECIATION.
A feeling of being appreciated and being able to make people see your worth.
And now, I suddenly found an answer.
The answer to some, but not all the million questions in my mind.
Like "How do you find the right reasons to smile?"
I guess it's the APPRECIATION.
A feeling of being appreciated and being able to make people see your worth.
Monday, June 4, 2012
New life- No more.
I stopped to breathe for a while...
As I stared blankly at the sky..
I've just been so lonely all these years...
My eyes are only filled with nothing but tears...
My life has been so dark til this day.
Not even a glimpse of sunlight can pass through a way.
Like it's doomed with sadness forever.
Like a bird that cannot chirp a sound, but it just began to quiver.
No fragrant breeze can capture a sleeping soul
Like a luscious feast prepared but still starving for another bowl
A spot of hope is nowhere to be found.
Should I give up now or struggle for another round?
What could it possibly be?
I'm blinded by the pain that's killing me.
I can no longer trust myself if I can still endure this.
How can I fight for a life when now I only find it meaningless.
As I stared blankly at the sky..
I've just been so lonely all these years...
My eyes are only filled with nothing but tears...
My life has been so dark til this day.
Not even a glimpse of sunlight can pass through a way.
Like it's doomed with sadness forever.
Like a bird that cannot chirp a sound, but it just began to quiver.
No fragrant breeze can capture a sleeping soul
Like a luscious feast prepared but still starving for another bowl
A spot of hope is nowhere to be found.
Should I give up now or struggle for another round?
What could it possibly be?
I'm blinded by the pain that's killing me.
I can no longer trust myself if I can still endure this.
How can I fight for a life when now I only find it meaningless.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Asian Adventure Slideshow
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Monday, May 21, 2012
Mail to Heaven
Dear God,
Why do I always feel so incapable of helping my friends in times of distress? :'(
Can you please enlighten me?
Thank you in advance.
It's me,
Your avid follower
Why do I always feel so incapable of helping my friends in times of distress? :'(
Can you please enlighten me?
Thank you in advance.
It's me,
Your avid follower
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Prose of the Heart
Either having the endurance to sustain or the ability to conceal the emotions inside of me,
Is the kind of battle between my mind and heart which can no longer be contained nor be set free.
And yet I know this must vanish or let myself die with ambiguity.
With the gravity of the consequences I can no longer hide nor handle even my integrity.
As it goes with the words "believing" and "dreaming" for in my opinion is never alike.
But now, it's as if they are inseparably gleaming as the truth beholds, and it never was a lie.
Crafted by despair, as it abandoned me while I was unaware that it wasn't a blissful dream but rather a nightmare that seems it could never finish.
Then I got myself completely awake as it goes through my consciousness, it gradually diminished.
I took a deep breath as I let my spirit out just like music, playing as I beat the crease.
As I now begin to touch my heart while hearing it thumpin' a thousand times like it will never stop.
You might be thinking how was I able to endure all these pain?
Because in the first place I knew that you were never mine nor will you look at me like sunshine.
Then I weep, cried and fainted in sorrow--almost letting myself drop.
Realizing all of this since the day my heart was broken into pieces.
And now, after all this time, I could say that life's obstacles moulded me to become a stronger person.
Inch by inch, I crawled with those goals I seek and hunger.
But how come when the lights go dim, I stay at a dark corner and it all ends up to be you-and only you, who I long for.
I'm not so glad to be the only one...
This is not what I intended to happen.
Seems like a jinx just stole all the happiness I could've gotten.
I might have just fooled myself but this certainly did not keep me laughin'.
Now I find this feeling so despicable.
I know for a fact that this leads to nothing.
Either I give up or end up losing something.
Including the love of a friend who, for me, means everything.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
10 years without you...
How I envy them a lot...
Deep inside of me is a broken heart...
How I hardly wish I had the same smile;
Like those good old days when you were still alive.
I thought I could live my life happily.
But with each day, I am being reminded of the times we were together --acting so carefree.
I'm dying to tell you all the stories of my adventures.
And wished I have the chance to go home for me to share to you my laughters.
You were my very best friend since the beginning of my existence.
To you I open up every piece of my failures and success.
You were my great fan even though I look up to you more than anyone else.
You always cheer me up in times when nobody could ever understand.
I know I wasn't the perfect daughter for you.
But you kept me motivated to reach my dreams, saying " In yourself you must believe".
You were always so proud of me, no matter what I do.
You never made me feel inferior about the things I can hardly achieve.
10 years without you, Ma...
It's killing me everytime I think of it.
I can't suppress all the tears in my eyes...
And each of those moments, I feel the pain like it's anew.
Happy Mother's Day, Ma!
10 years without you.... But you never fail to inspire me.
I love you...and FOREVER will do.
P.S. I just hope all the people who are lucky enough to still be with their moms, will cherish and forever be grateful to the most special woman in our lives. This one is also dedicated to all mothers whom I look up to.
My heartfelt thanks goes to my grandma- Lola Alice, who served as my second mom after Mama's death. As well to my aunts who continued to support me and believed in me in spite of my shortcomings. I love you all! :)
Deep inside of me is a broken heart...
How I hardly wish I had the same smile;
Like those good old days when you were still alive.
I thought I could live my life happily.
But with each day, I am being reminded of the times we were together --acting so carefree.
I'm dying to tell you all the stories of my adventures.
And wished I have the chance to go home for me to share to you my laughters.
You were my very best friend since the beginning of my existence.
To you I open up every piece of my failures and success.
You were my great fan even though I look up to you more than anyone else.
You always cheer me up in times when nobody could ever understand.
I know I wasn't the perfect daughter for you.
But you kept me motivated to reach my dreams, saying " In yourself you must believe".
You were always so proud of me, no matter what I do.
You never made me feel inferior about the things I can hardly achieve.
10 years without you, Ma...
It's killing me everytime I think of it.
I can't suppress all the tears in my eyes...
And each of those moments, I feel the pain like it's anew.
Happy Mother's Day, Ma!
10 years without you.... But you never fail to inspire me.
I love you...and FOREVER will do.
P.S. I just hope all the people who are lucky enough to still be with their moms, will cherish and forever be grateful to the most special woman in our lives. This one is also dedicated to all mothers whom I look up to.
My heartfelt thanks goes to my grandma- Lola Alice, who served as my second mom after Mama's death. As well to my aunts who continued to support me and believed in me in spite of my shortcomings. I love you all! :)
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Realities of LIFE
Would there ever be FAIRNESS in this world?
As I always hear (and experience).... Life is indeed, UNFAIR.
Sad, but so TRUE.
Other people might just see you not as a person but just merely something to be used of.
Like a milking cow that they can suck up for all of it's nutrients without any limit.
Like a bank where they can draw out unlimited number of transactions without investing not even a single cent for a deposit.
Like a robot with no emotion--not even a chance of dropping a tear in the eye.
Like a plain dumb creature that's so helpless and left without any choice or option.
Now, what could this possibly mean?
Am I destined to be toyed around, looked down, or treated as an accessory?
For until this day, I don't completely understand the mystery that is still covering my fate.
Where do I begin?
And where do I end?
Life is starting to get gloomy and gloomy each day.
Is it worth fighting for?
Is it so precious to cherish a life that has existed in a complicated way?
Struggling to survive all the trials that I am facing.
But if I cannot take this anymore, then, I'll end up being just like everyone else--a LOSER.
Or rather be someone that's brittle enough to scatter...like a glass that is easy to break--a FAILURE.
Seems like there's no end to this...unless, I END it myself.
We'll see how it goes.
As I always hear (and experience).... Life is indeed, UNFAIR.
Sad, but so TRUE.
Other people might just see you not as a person but just merely something to be used of.
Like a milking cow that they can suck up for all of it's nutrients without any limit.
Like a bank where they can draw out unlimited number of transactions without investing not even a single cent for a deposit.
Like a robot with no emotion--not even a chance of dropping a tear in the eye.
Like a plain dumb creature that's so helpless and left without any choice or option.
Now, what could this possibly mean?
Am I destined to be toyed around, looked down, or treated as an accessory?
For until this day, I don't completely understand the mystery that is still covering my fate.
Where do I begin?
And where do I end?
Life is starting to get gloomy and gloomy each day.
Is it worth fighting for?
Is it so precious to cherish a life that has existed in a complicated way?
Struggling to survive all the trials that I am facing.
But if I cannot take this anymore, then, I'll end up being just like everyone else--a LOSER.
Or rather be someone that's brittle enough to scatter...like a glass that is easy to break--a FAILURE.
Seems like there's no end to this...unless, I END it myself.
We'll see how it goes.
Monday, April 30, 2012
Unsung Plea
If only I could, I would... shout to the world how much I love you.
If only I could, I would... embrace you each day with the warmth of my heart.
If only I could, I would... not let you feel any sadness as I would catch all your suppressed tears and turn them into smiles.
If only I could, I would...take away your pain and sorrow so you will not have any worries.
If only I could, I would...be at your side--night and day, be your shelter with all my might.
If only I could, I would... watch the stars as they sparkle above the sky--in the midst of the darkness, I will let myself be your never-ending light.
If only I could, I would...fight for you, no matter what it takes, whatever battle it may be , wherever it may lead me.
If given a chance..and if you wouldn't ignore me, I will really say what my heart speaks out for ... all of this... if only I could. But I don't have the courage to tell it straight to you, face to face.
Then instead, let it be my unsung plea.
If only I could, I would... embrace you each day with the warmth of my heart.
If only I could, I would... not let you feel any sadness as I would catch all your suppressed tears and turn them into smiles.
If only I could, I would...take away your pain and sorrow so you will not have any worries.
If only I could, I would...be at your side--night and day, be your shelter with all my might.
If only I could, I would... watch the stars as they sparkle above the sky--in the midst of the darkness, I will let myself be your never-ending light.
If only I could, I would...fight for you, no matter what it takes, whatever battle it may be , wherever it may lead me.
If given a chance..and if you wouldn't ignore me, I will really say what my heart speaks out for ... all of this... if only I could. But I don't have the courage to tell it straight to you, face to face.
Then instead, let it be my unsung plea.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Byul
Param-kyori cha-ngeu-heun-teul-go
Nae kiman-han cha-gun naye bang wi-ro
Arum-taun-ke pyul-bit-durun
Kaduk chae-wo-chuneyo
Sel-su-obshi manhunt pyul-tu-reun
Ji-chyo-in-nun na-reul oru-man-chimyo
Nae mam-soge katok tamun
Nun-mul tak-ka shu-neyo
Man-hyi apa-ha-ji-ma
Nal kkung anun-chae
Tado-kyojumyo chal-jara
Wero-hae ju-neyo
Goshi mo-thal man-kum
Hime gyowa apa-wado
Nun-muri a-peul kar-yowado
Gatchi-mothan nae sarang apedo
Na usul-lae-yu
Cham-shira-do gyote
Haeng-bo-khaet-don giok-turul
Ga-sume gan-ji-khal-kkeyo
Tunune sunoh-a-jin
Cho pyol-deul-cho-rom yongwonhi
Kkumul kku-deut taka-uneyo
Yu-nu-nhi-do balkun naye byol hana
Nunbu-shi-mi panjja-gimyo
Okkae-wiro naer-yo-wa
Jakku sulpo-hajima
Son kkong chabun-chae
Nal manchyo-jumyo
Tta-seu-hi nal kamssa-shu-neyo
Goshi mo-thal man-kum
Hime gyowa apa-wado
Nun-muri a-peul kar-yowado
Gatchi-mothan nae sarang apedo
Na usul-lae-yu
Cham-shira-do gyote
Haeng-bo-khaet-don giok-turul
Ga-seum-soge gan-chikhal-kke-yo
Tunune sunoh-ajin
Cho pyol-deul-chorom ooohhhh
Na onul-manun anu-royu
Nun-muri kadokchowado
Chogi cho byol-deul-chorom
Na u-seul-lae-yo ooohhhh
Haeng-bokhaet-don giok-modu
Ga-sume gan-ji-khal-kkeyo
Tunune sunoh-a-jin
Cho pyon-deul-cho-rom
Yongwonhi
Monday, April 16, 2012
Thanks, Bro!
Dear God,
You really have heard all my prayers... It's just that You don't simply answer all of them at one time. Though I know I can't have all of those in a snap... But, I'm so grateful to You (as always) for hearing my petitions. I am truly thankful as You constantly shower me with Your blessings...I may not be Your ever obedient follower but in You, I entrust my life.
Thank you Lord! ^_^
You really have heard all my prayers... It's just that You don't simply answer all of them at one time. Though I know I can't have all of those in a snap... But, I'm so grateful to You (as always) for hearing my petitions. I am truly thankful as You constantly shower me with Your blessings...I may not be Your ever obedient follower but in You, I entrust my life.
Thank you Lord! ^_^
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Just one of those many days...
If I'm gonna ask myself as to what am I good at, I would think of the word.... pretending.
Yes, all my life, I've been struggling to survive and be an expert when in comes to independency.
It flatters me whenever I hear my friends and acquaintances say that I'm a tough woman.
I've been through a LOT.
Trials, frustrations, failures, rejection, and betrayal... to name a few.
However, I consider them as part of the challenges in life.
Some people come and go...some people will stay til the end, and some people will just pass by to teach you valuable lessons in life.
Experiences which will mold your personality and make you somewhat invincible.
But no matter how strong these challenges have made me become who I am... still,to no avail, there's a weak part of me that supersedes my drive for this battle-- emotion.
If it's my birth month (February) or my birth year (Year of the Rabbit) is to blame, that, I do not know.
It's sickening to think that despite the hardships and sufferings I've familiarized myself with, in just one snap of this stupid emotion, it'll just break me down.
And with that, how I feel sorry for myself to be defeated of my utmost willpower to strive for my existence. In the end, I will still be the one to reap all the failures.
I can't count on how million times I tried to fake a smile-or I guess, tried my very best to cover the pain so that it won't be too obvious to other people about what I am going through.
Many times, I've thought of destroying myself as I've come to the ultimate peak of giving up.
Many nights, I've wondered how far will I ever tolerate this.
It's so hard to keep on forcing myself to be happy.
Because the truth is, I am more than being empty and filled with sadness.
Feels like the whole world is pointing its fingers at me.
Blaming me and only myself for being miserable.
I've tried to scream alone as no one will and no has surely heard of me.
I've cried a river of tears, knowing that it could somehow ease the burden in my heart.
I'm getting tired of fighting.
I'm getting tired of pretending that I am okay-because I'M NOT. :'(
Yes, all my life, I've been struggling to survive and be an expert when in comes to independency.
It flatters me whenever I hear my friends and acquaintances say that I'm a tough woman.
I've been through a LOT.
Trials, frustrations, failures, rejection, and betrayal... to name a few.
However, I consider them as part of the challenges in life.
Some people come and go...some people will stay til the end, and some people will just pass by to teach you valuable lessons in life.
Experiences which will mold your personality and make you somewhat invincible.
But no matter how strong these challenges have made me become who I am... still,to no avail, there's a weak part of me that supersedes my drive for this battle-- emotion.
If it's my birth month (February) or my birth year (Year of the Rabbit) is to blame, that, I do not know.
It's sickening to think that despite the hardships and sufferings I've familiarized myself with, in just one snap of this stupid emotion, it'll just break me down.
And with that, how I feel sorry for myself to be defeated of my utmost willpower to strive for my existence. In the end, I will still be the one to reap all the failures.
I can't count on how million times I tried to fake a smile-or I guess, tried my very best to cover the pain so that it won't be too obvious to other people about what I am going through.
Many times, I've thought of destroying myself as I've come to the ultimate peak of giving up.
Many nights, I've wondered how far will I ever tolerate this.
It's so hard to keep on forcing myself to be happy.
Because the truth is, I am more than being empty and filled with sadness.
Feels like the whole world is pointing its fingers at me.
Blaming me and only myself for being miserable.
I've tried to scream alone as no one will and no has surely heard of me.
I've cried a river of tears, knowing that it could somehow ease the burden in my heart.
I'm getting tired of fighting.
I'm getting tired of pretending that I am okay-because I'M NOT. :'(
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Goodbye,year of the rabbit!
Year 2011 -the year of the RABBIT, has given me a lot of surprises. Challenges in life that are worth giving a damn good fight for. I swear I would have given up on the first quarter of this year if not for the knowledge of getting a better life on the 2nd quarter and onwards.... :)
Starting from December 2010 until March 2011, I considered myself to be super broke. No work or career.No money.No family.Not even a place of my own.
Before my working visa has been released, it felt like it took me a million years of hopeless waiting and I was so close to praying for any miracle. :'(
I began to realize what I did in the past for me to end up being so messed up and helpless... T_T
But now, even though I can't perfectly say that I'm all good, I still want to say I've been so much blessed this year.Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful year to spend and enjoy. Year 2011, you've been so good to me! Trials may have come along my journey that brought me sadness and tears, but these made me stronger and so much prepared for whatever challenges life has to offer.
I cannot count all the blessings that God has bestowed upon me this year. Successfully reaching my goal of working abroad and having a stable career is one of the best things I had this year. I've been blessed with new friends..most of them whom I can count on and share with my ups and downs. I am overly thankful for having good buddies even though knowing them is still in a neophyte phase. In friendship, it doesn't matter how short you've known someone , but it's how deep the relationship you have developed over time.
I can't put into words of what I'm feeling right now..Mixed emotions, I guess. In one way or another, I am optimistic that 2012 will also grace me with such a bountiful time not only for myself but also to all of my loved ones and the people whom I cared so much for.
I am looking forward to reach the goals I have set for the next year...and hopefully, I can make them happen within the year as well.. :)
Everything paid off...and now...another year of exciting journey has just begun.... ^_^
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Goodbye year of the RABBIT!...Hello year of the DRAGON! Let's start this year 2012 with a bang!!!
Fighting!!! ^_^
Starting from December 2010 until March 2011, I considered myself to be super broke. No work or career.No money.No family.Not even a place of my own.
Before my working visa has been released, it felt like it took me a million years of hopeless waiting and I was so close to praying for any miracle. :'(
I began to realize what I did in the past for me to end up being so messed up and helpless... T_T
But now, even though I can't perfectly say that I'm all good, I still want to say I've been so much blessed this year.Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful year to spend and enjoy. Year 2011, you've been so good to me! Trials may have come along my journey that brought me sadness and tears, but these made me stronger and so much prepared for whatever challenges life has to offer.
I cannot count all the blessings that God has bestowed upon me this year. Successfully reaching my goal of working abroad and having a stable career is one of the best things I had this year. I've been blessed with new friends..most of them whom I can count on and share with my ups and downs. I am overly thankful for having good buddies even though knowing them is still in a neophyte phase. In friendship, it doesn't matter how short you've known someone , but it's how deep the relationship you have developed over time.
I can't put into words of what I'm feeling right now..Mixed emotions, I guess. In one way or another, I am optimistic that 2012 will also grace me with such a bountiful time not only for myself but also to all of my loved ones and the people whom I cared so much for.
I am looking forward to reach the goals I have set for the next year...and hopefully, I can make them happen within the year as well.. :)
Everything paid off...and now...another year of exciting journey has just begun.... ^_^
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Goodbye year of the RABBIT!...Hello year of the DRAGON! Let's start this year 2012 with a bang!!!
Fighting!!! ^_^
Escape
I could hardly understand myself these past few weeks...
I get overly distracted...with some sudden switch of mood...and an impulsive decision-making thingy.
Getting easily annoyed and bitter over simple things.
I hate such feeling of depression that strikes like lightning; hurts like my heart is repeatedly hit by a hammer and then feeling the blood flowing down through my veins that activates this rushing adrenaline...
But I'm still trying my best to compose something...
Something worth being read...
Out from nowhere .... the idea pops into my head.
I can come up with a LOT of words....adjectives to be exact-- that could best describe what I am feeling right now.....
Upset.
Discouraged.
Disappointed.
Bitter.
Envious.
And all these leads me to feel some sort of emptiness....Like I'm:
Being rejected.
Unworthy.
Undesirable.
Being taken for granted.
and
Blaming myself and undergoing self-pity.
With this sudden realization that my thoughts are really not that bounty.
Right before my very eyes,instantly,I'm beginning to reflect why am I doing this.
It's definitely not just an ordinary self-assumption but rather a hostile feeling of being stuck in between these abrasive twists and turns of life.
It's hard to arrange my thoughts, put it into words and make it like a professional girl's blogsite.
For some reason, I'd like to find my way out --- far from this labyrinth.
And this makes me feel sad ...makes me feel bad...makes me feel mad
(Coz I can't have all I have wanted and asked).
I get overly distracted...with some sudden switch of mood...and an impulsive decision-making thingy.
Getting easily annoyed and bitter over simple things.
I hate such feeling of depression that strikes like lightning; hurts like my heart is repeatedly hit by a hammer and then feeling the blood flowing down through my veins that activates this rushing adrenaline...
But I'm still trying my best to compose something...
Something worth being read...
Out from nowhere .... the idea pops into my head.
I can come up with a LOT of words....adjectives to be exact-- that could best describe what I am feeling right now.....
Upset.
Discouraged.
Disappointed.
Bitter.
Envious.
And all these leads me to feel some sort of emptiness....Like I'm:
Being rejected.
Unworthy.
Undesirable.
Being taken for granted.
and
Blaming myself and undergoing self-pity.
With this sudden realization that my thoughts are really not that bounty.
Right before my very eyes,instantly,I'm beginning to reflect why am I doing this.
It's definitely not just an ordinary self-assumption but rather a hostile feeling of being stuck in between these abrasive twists and turns of life.
It's hard to arrange my thoughts, put it into words and make it like a professional girl's blogsite.
For some reason, I'd like to find my way out --- far from this labyrinth.
And this makes me feel sad ...makes me feel bad...makes me feel mad
(Coz I can't have all I have wanted and asked).
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
My 2011-2012 Leave Planner
My boss is so kind! He approved my leaves on January 2012... :)
And I didn't have much problems with having a swap shift with Shah... I'm so lucky! :p
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Be inspired. Breathe Again.
I persistently asked Marlo, my officemate who's going back to the Philippines for a short vacay, to buy me a copy of my favorite male artist's newest album. Luckily, he was kind enough to say yes with this favor. Day by day, I was patiently (and eagerly) waiting for him to come back here in MY. Hoping that as he arrives, he already brought this such precious item.
Today, I got my long-awaited copy of Jed Madela's latest album ''Breathe Again". I can't find the perfect words to express how happy I am right now. Such a childish act as it may seem to other people. But this is who I am. This is what I want. This is what makes me HAPPY. And for the rest.... I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.
Just thought of making another article here on my blog site for me to share such memorable moment of my life. Surviving to be more and more independent while being a thousand miles away from home brings forth courage to fight depression and unexplained sadness in my heart. But learning to face those struggles makes me more and more matured and optimistic no matter how irresolvable and hopeless a certain problem may seem to be.
Music is one of my passions. And so as poetry. I love the combination of the two.... and I think, this album doesn't only soothe the soul but also can be described as a real masterpiece..More than a work of art. Like a heavenly blessing. A true inspiration... ^_^
Because I got so overwhelmed, I posted a tweet that goes:
And I thought I'll be surprised by the CD alone. But after an hour of posting the above tweet...this is what I got........
This day is really insane! A simple 'thank you' meant so much to me... Though I may be considered to have a shallow happiness, right at this very moment, I think a wishing star might have just granted my simple wish... :)
Today, I got my long-awaited copy of Jed Madela's latest album ''Breathe Again". I can't find the perfect words to express how happy I am right now. Such a childish act as it may seem to other people. But this is who I am. This is what I want. This is what makes me HAPPY. And for the rest.... I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.
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| proudly posing while holding Jed's album |
Just thought of making another article here on my blog site for me to share such memorable moment of my life. Surviving to be more and more independent while being a thousand miles away from home brings forth courage to fight depression and unexplained sadness in my heart. But learning to face those struggles makes me more and more matured and optimistic no matter how irresolvable and hopeless a certain problem may seem to be.
Music is one of my passions. And so as poetry. I love the combination of the two.... and I think, this album doesn't only soothe the soul but also can be described as a real masterpiece..More than a work of art. Like a heavenly blessing. A true inspiration... ^_^
Because I got so overwhelmed, I posted a tweet that goes:
And I thought I'll be surprised by the CD alone. But after an hour of posting the above tweet...this is what I got........
This day is really insane! A simple 'thank you' meant so much to me... Though I may be considered to have a shallow happiness, right at this very moment, I think a wishing star might have just granted my simple wish... :)
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Adele's "Someone Like You"
I heard that you settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
My 2011 Leave planner
Last night, I haven't gotten enough sleep. But I became so eager to work upon receiving a confirmation from my boss regarding my leave requests!... and now, all I have to worry is my leave application for next year... ( sigh)
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Malacca Escapade!
On our quest to explore the beauty of Malacca...
September 10- 11, 2011
We gathered at Asia Jaya LRT station around 6:40am and then headed to Masjid Jamek.
It was supposed to be 5:45am for the meet up (as suggested by our friend, Maco)....but it turned out to be later than the original scheduled time... ;-)
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| Sept.10, 2011 6:30am --while waiting for Mako and Ryan to arrive at Asia Jaya (5:45am daw kasi! lol) |
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| puyat si Roy ( pero di raw siya excited nyan! hahaha) |
After reaching M.Jamek, we had a short stop at McDonald's for a take-out breakfast.
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| At Masjid Jamek LRT station |
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| Anything goes...as long as we have the camera,we're ready to pose! |
Then went straight to TBS ( Terminal Bersepadu Selatan)....
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| Roy, Angel and me |
TBS
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| Looks like I'm lost but I wasn't... ( mukhang tanga lang) |
At 8:10 in the morning, we departed from TBS.
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On the bus going to Melaka  |
We reached in Melaka Central Station ( MCS ) at exactly 9:50am .
We rented 2 taxis for a tour and the 8 of us got to visit some of the well-known places within the city.
Here are some of the tourist spots we've been to:
St. Peter's Church ...
Bukit China...
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| I know I look stupid here... |
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| same as this... ;-) |
Chinese Temple...
Saint John's Hill...
Portugese Settlement...
Jonker Walk ...
Christ Church ...
Arrived at A-Famosa (past 3pm)...
A lovely facade of A Famosa
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| Neysa, enjoying the view from our condo unit in A Famosa |
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| At the living room |
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| waiting for the shuttle bus to Water World |
Ready to go to Water World!
Water World...
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| Ryan, making a pose at Water World |
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| Angel and Roy |
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| teh...ang props na towel..wag tanggalin! hehehe |
Cowboy Town ...
Firework Display...
Dinner at a Chinese Restaurant in Cowboy Town...
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| while waiting for our meal to be served |
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| But wait...there's more! I wonder where those other pictures are.... |
...After the long day, it was finally time for me to sleep...and that was already 2:30 in the morning!
Woke up last ( I think) among the group...around 7 am.
Supposed to have a safari tour but because of the heavy rain ( which I indeed hate the most in times like this), we just decided to stay in the condo and watched a comedy film.
It's already 12 noon and it was time for us to check -out.... ='(
On our way out of A Famosa...
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| departed from A Famosa around 12:30 nn |
We reached at the Melaka Central Station around past 1 o' clock...Had lunch at past 2pm...and went on our way back to KL at 3:10pm.
Since there was a terrible traffic jam, we reached at TBS around 6pm. Then I reached home at 7:30pm. Fortunately, it was my replacement off the following day so I had the time to relax and rest the whole night.
It was another great experience for me especially being with those guys na " walang arte" as they say. I had a memorable time with them to which I consider priceless!.. For a moment, I forgot that I was away from home and it felt so good to get away from all the stress and pressure brought about by working abroad.
Hope I could have another chance to get a time-off from work and make another exciting adventure in exploring not only Malaysia but some other countries as well.. ^_^
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