Outcast

Feels like I'm isolated from the world.  Making my own way to survive and continue to exist without even knowing my real purpose. Breathing hard, keeping my blood pumpin' through my veins, leaving my eyes wide open ... Struggling to understand why everything's starting to change.


For I have almost got everything that I wanted... still, I get no satisfaction. Seems that something is missing..something is lacking..and maybe something must have gotten  wrong.
In the end, I intend to keep looking for what is right.. Somehow, I'll be able to find all the answers to my queries.


But what I've got now is just an empty, clueless, and blinded mind.

Chasing Pavements

-- a song by Adele




I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love


But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you


Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?


I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?


Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?


Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing pavements
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?


Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?



** I was really having an LSS with this song today...

cliff

This will be the last time that I'm going to give it another try and give him another chance. If this ain't gonna work, atleast I can tell myself that I did everything to save it.






This is like we're on a cliff..One wrong move...and we're dead.

Breaking Free!

Who says  "breaking up is hard to do"?


I think it is much easier for someone to break up in a relationship if he/she isn't happy anymore. All he/she has to do is be true to himself/herself and make a definite decision if it's a "go" or "no". As we all know, regrets come after each move so better not have any of it once you made your own choice.


It may sound so stupid but, what can I do? I'm just a human being who wants to be free and be happy..After all, we only have one chance to live in this world that's why we need to live our lives to the fullest!

1st month and still counting...

 

I wish I was born a poet
So that I could write something for you
I wish I was someone of Shakespeare's descendant
For I would be able to share my sweet words...even just a few.

Crazy,as it may seem to be...or am I just being delirious?
Sometimes I feel so agitated
It's really awful...now I'm getting kinda frustrated
But I still think of it like it's nothing serious.

You are not like the other guys I've met before
Being so conceited, even too narcissistic, that's what they were
In your own funny little way, you make me smile
And my heart thumps as far as it can reach, perhaps more than a mile

I love you more than you might have just known
I think you don't have the full idea of what's going on
This love might be little mushy or something
Maybe it's not a bad idea, after all we're both doing some stupid
things

Loving you and to be loved by you feels so great
Even all the richness in the world can not repay
How lucky I am to have met you
In the most unexpected time and place, I have found you

 

I don't care about what other people might think or say 
As long as I enjoy my life beside you, in every way
The emotion that I have endowed is absolutely unrequited
It doesn't matter whether I get myself with a radical critique
 

I may not be the most romantic person that you've ever been with
But what I'm saying is all so true
Whether you believe me or not, it's all for real
Can't think of a perfect way to say how I feel
 

I fear the day that I might lose you
I know nothing's gonna be permanent for the two of us
But for now, let me cherish every moment that we're together
For I am happy to be a part of your life

I want to prepare myself when the day comes you're gonna leave this
place
I'll be left alone here
I want to be numb enough for I might feel so hurt
and probably won't endure this heartache that's gonna spurt

Let me just love you every day
'Til my last breath would fade away
It may not seem so obvious with the way I move
But in the end, you'll probably say that there's no need for any proof
 
I  could not ask for anything more
Than to be with you, it's all I'm asking for
So I made this simple poem for you to read
To let you know how I appreciate your presence indeed
 

Happy 1st Monthsary, my sweetie!