Year 2011 -the year of the RABBIT, has given me a lot of surprises. Challenges in life that are worth giving a damn good fight for. I swear I would have given up on the first quarter of this year if not for the knowledge of getting a better life on the 2nd quarter and onwards.... :)
Starting from December 2010 until March 2011, I considered myself to be super broke. No work or career.No money.No family.Not even a place of my own.
Before my working visa has been released, it felt like it took me a million years of hopeless waiting and I was so close to praying for any miracle. :'(
I began to realize what I did in the past for me to end up being so messed up and helpless... T_T
But now, even though I can't perfectly say that I'm all good, I still want to say I've been so much blessed this year.Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful year to spend and enjoy. Year 2011, you've been so good to me! Trials may have come along my journey that brought me sadness and tears, but these made me stronger and so much prepared for whatever challenges life has to offer.
I cannot count all the blessings that God has bestowed upon me this year. Successfully reaching my goal of working abroad and having a stable career is one of the best things I had this year. I've been blessed with new friends..most of them whom I can count on and share with my ups and downs. I am overly thankful for having good buddies even though knowing them is still in a neophyte phase. In friendship, it doesn't matter how short you've known someone , but it's how deep the relationship you have developed over time.
I can't put into words of what I'm feeling right now..Mixed emotions, I guess. In one way or another, I am optimistic that 2012 will also grace me with such a bountiful time not only for myself but also to all of my loved ones and the people whom I cared so much for.
I am looking forward to reach the goals I have set for the next year...and hopefully, I can make them happen within the year as well.. :)
Everything paid off...and now...another year of exciting journey has just begun.... ^_^
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Goodbye year of the RABBIT!...Hello year of the DRAGON! Let's start this year 2012 with a bang!!!
Fighting!!! ^_^
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Escape
I could hardly understand myself these past few weeks...
I get overly distracted...with some sudden switch of mood...and an impulsive decision-making thingy.
Getting easily annoyed and bitter over simple things.
I hate such feeling of depression that strikes like lightning; hurts like my heart is repeatedly hit by a hammer and then feeling the blood flowing down through my veins that activates this rushing adrenaline...
But I'm still trying my best to compose something...
Something worth being read...
Out from nowhere .... the idea pops into my head.
I can come up with a LOT of words....adjectives to be exact-- that could best describe what I am feeling right now.....
Upset.
Discouraged.
Disappointed.
Bitter.
Envious.
And all these leads me to feel some sort of emptiness....Like I'm:
Being rejected.
Unworthy.
Undesirable.
Being taken for granted.
and
Blaming myself and undergoing self-pity.
With this sudden realization that my thoughts are really not that bounty.
Right before my very eyes,instantly,I'm beginning to reflect why am I doing this.
It's definitely not just an ordinary self-assumption but rather a hostile feeling of being stuck in between these abrasive twists and turns of life.
It's hard to arrange my thoughts, put it into words and make it like a professional girl's blogsite.
For some reason, I'd like to find my way out --- far from this labyrinth.
And this makes me feel sad ...makes me feel bad...makes me feel mad
(Coz I can't have all I have wanted and asked).
I get overly distracted...with some sudden switch of mood...and an impulsive decision-making thingy.
Getting easily annoyed and bitter over simple things.
I hate such feeling of depression that strikes like lightning; hurts like my heart is repeatedly hit by a hammer and then feeling the blood flowing down through my veins that activates this rushing adrenaline...
But I'm still trying my best to compose something...
Something worth being read...
Out from nowhere .... the idea pops into my head.
I can come up with a LOT of words....adjectives to be exact-- that could best describe what I am feeling right now.....
Upset.
Discouraged.
Disappointed.
Bitter.
Envious.
And all these leads me to feel some sort of emptiness....Like I'm:
Being rejected.
Unworthy.
Undesirable.
Being taken for granted.
and
Blaming myself and undergoing self-pity.
With this sudden realization that my thoughts are really not that bounty.
Right before my very eyes,instantly,I'm beginning to reflect why am I doing this.
It's definitely not just an ordinary self-assumption but rather a hostile feeling of being stuck in between these abrasive twists and turns of life.
It's hard to arrange my thoughts, put it into words and make it like a professional girl's blogsite.
For some reason, I'd like to find my way out --- far from this labyrinth.
And this makes me feel sad ...makes me feel bad...makes me feel mad
(Coz I can't have all I have wanted and asked).
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
My 2011-2012 Leave Planner
My boss is so kind! He approved my leaves on January 2012... :)
And I didn't have much problems with having a swap shift with Shah... I'm so lucky! :p
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Be inspired. Breathe Again.
I persistently asked Marlo, my officemate who's going back to the Philippines for a short vacay, to buy me a copy of my favorite male artist's newest album. Luckily, he was kind enough to say yes with this favor. Day by day, I was patiently (and eagerly) waiting for him to come back here in MY. Hoping that as he arrives, he already brought this such precious item.
Today, I got my long-awaited copy of Jed Madela's latest album ''Breathe Again". I can't find the perfect words to express how happy I am right now. Such a childish act as it may seem to other people. But this is who I am. This is what I want. This is what makes me HAPPY. And for the rest.... I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.
Just thought of making another article here on my blog site for me to share such memorable moment of my life. Surviving to be more and more independent while being a thousand miles away from home brings forth courage to fight depression and unexplained sadness in my heart. But learning to face those struggles makes me more and more matured and optimistic no matter how irresolvable and hopeless a certain problem may seem to be.
Music is one of my passions. And so as poetry. I love the combination of the two.... and I think, this album doesn't only soothe the soul but also can be described as a real masterpiece..More than a work of art. Like a heavenly blessing. A true inspiration... ^_^
Because I got so overwhelmed, I posted a tweet that goes:
And I thought I'll be surprised by the CD alone. But after an hour of posting the above tweet...this is what I got........
This day is really insane! A simple 'thank you' meant so much to me... Though I may be considered to have a shallow happiness, right at this very moment, I think a wishing star might have just granted my simple wish... :)
Today, I got my long-awaited copy of Jed Madela's latest album ''Breathe Again". I can't find the perfect words to express how happy I am right now. Such a childish act as it may seem to other people. But this is who I am. This is what I want. This is what makes me HAPPY. And for the rest.... I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.
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| proudly posing while holding Jed's album |
Just thought of making another article here on my blog site for me to share such memorable moment of my life. Surviving to be more and more independent while being a thousand miles away from home brings forth courage to fight depression and unexplained sadness in my heart. But learning to face those struggles makes me more and more matured and optimistic no matter how irresolvable and hopeless a certain problem may seem to be.
Music is one of my passions. And so as poetry. I love the combination of the two.... and I think, this album doesn't only soothe the soul but also can be described as a real masterpiece..More than a work of art. Like a heavenly blessing. A true inspiration... ^_^
Because I got so overwhelmed, I posted a tweet that goes:
And I thought I'll be surprised by the CD alone. But after an hour of posting the above tweet...this is what I got........
This day is really insane! A simple 'thank you' meant so much to me... Though I may be considered to have a shallow happiness, right at this very moment, I think a wishing star might have just granted my simple wish... :)
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Adele's "Someone Like You"
I heard that you settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
My 2011 Leave planner
Last night, I haven't gotten enough sleep. But I became so eager to work upon receiving a confirmation from my boss regarding my leave requests!... and now, all I have to worry is my leave application for next year... ( sigh)
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Malacca Escapade!
On our quest to explore the beauty of Malacca...
September 10- 11, 2011
We gathered at Asia Jaya LRT station around 6:40am and then headed to Masjid Jamek.
It was supposed to be 5:45am for the meet up (as suggested by our friend, Maco)....but it turned out to be later than the original scheduled time... ;-)
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| Sept.10, 2011 6:30am --while waiting for Mako and Ryan to arrive at Asia Jaya (5:45am daw kasi! lol) |
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| puyat si Roy ( pero di raw siya excited nyan! hahaha) |
After reaching M.Jamek, we had a short stop at McDonald's for a take-out breakfast.
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| At Masjid Jamek LRT station |
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| Anything goes...as long as we have the camera,we're ready to pose! |
Then went straight to TBS ( Terminal Bersepadu Selatan)....
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| Roy, Angel and me |
TBS
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| Looks like I'm lost but I wasn't... ( mukhang tanga lang) |
At 8:10 in the morning, we departed from TBS.
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On the bus going to Melaka  |
We reached in Melaka Central Station ( MCS ) at exactly 9:50am .
We rented 2 taxis for a tour and the 8 of us got to visit some of the well-known places within the city.
Here are some of the tourist spots we've been to:
St. Peter's Church ...
Bukit China...
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| I know I look stupid here... |
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| same as this... ;-) |
Chinese Temple...
Saint John's Hill...
Portugese Settlement...
Jonker Walk ...
Christ Church ...
Arrived at A-Famosa (past 3pm)...
A lovely facade of A Famosa
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| Neysa, enjoying the view from our condo unit in A Famosa |
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| At the living room |
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| waiting for the shuttle bus to Water World |
Ready to go to Water World!
Water World...
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| Ryan, making a pose at Water World |
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| Angel and Roy |
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| teh...ang props na towel..wag tanggalin! hehehe |
Cowboy Town ...
Firework Display...
Dinner at a Chinese Restaurant in Cowboy Town...
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| while waiting for our meal to be served |
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| But wait...there's more! I wonder where those other pictures are.... |
...After the long day, it was finally time for me to sleep...and that was already 2:30 in the morning!
Woke up last ( I think) among the group...around 7 am.
Supposed to have a safari tour but because of the heavy rain ( which I indeed hate the most in times like this), we just decided to stay in the condo and watched a comedy film.
It's already 12 noon and it was time for us to check -out.... ='(
On our way out of A Famosa...
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| departed from A Famosa around 12:30 nn |
We reached at the Melaka Central Station around past 1 o' clock...Had lunch at past 2pm...and went on our way back to KL at 3:10pm.
Since there was a terrible traffic jam, we reached at TBS around 6pm. Then I reached home at 7:30pm. Fortunately, it was my replacement off the following day so I had the time to relax and rest the whole night.
It was another great experience for me especially being with those guys na " walang arte" as they say. I had a memorable time with them to which I consider priceless!.. For a moment, I forgot that I was away from home and it felt so good to get away from all the stress and pressure brought about by working abroad.
Hope I could have another chance to get a time-off from work and make another exciting adventure in exploring not only Malaysia but some other countries as well.. ^_^
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