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Mail to Heaven

Dear God,


Why do I always feel so incapable of helping my friends in times of distress? :'(


Can you please enlighten me?


Thank you in advance.




It's me,
Your avid follower

Prose of the Heart

Either having the endurance to sustain or  the ability to conceal the emotions inside of me,
Is the kind of battle between my mind and heart which can no longer be contained nor be set free.
And yet I know this must vanish or let myself die with ambiguity.
With the gravity of the consequences I can no longer hide nor handle even my integrity.




As it goes with the words "believing" and "dreaming" for in my opinion is never alike.
But now, it's as if they are inseparably gleaming as the truth beholds, and it never was a lie.
Crafted by despair,  as it abandoned me while I was unaware that it wasn't a blissful dream but rather a nightmare that seems it could never finish.
Then I got myself completely awake as it goes through my consciousness, it gradually diminished.




I took a deep breath as I let my spirit out just like music, playing as I beat the crease.
As I now begin to touch my heart while hearing it thumpin' a thousand times like it will never stop.
You might be thinking how was I able to endure all these pain?
Because in the first place I knew that you were never mine nor will you look at me like sunshine.
Then I weep, cried and fainted in sorrow--almost letting myself drop.
Realizing all of this since the day my heart was broken into pieces.




And now, after all this time, I could say that life's obstacles moulded me to become a stronger person.
Inch by inch, I crawled with those goals I seek and hunger.
But how come when the lights go dim, I stay at a dark corner and it all ends up to be you-and only you, who I long for.




I'm not so glad to be the only one...
This is not what I intended to happen.
Seems like a jinx just stole all the happiness I could've gotten.
I might have just fooled myself but this certainly did not keep me laughin'.




Now I find this feeling so despicable.
I know for a fact that this leads to nothing.
Either I give up or end up losing something.
Including the love of a friend who, for me, means everything.

10 years without you...

How I envy them a lot...
Deep inside of me is a broken heart...
How I hardly wish I had the same smile;
Like those good old days when you were still alive.


I thought I could live my life happily.
But with each day, I am being reminded of the times we were together --acting so carefree.
I'm dying to tell you all the stories of my adventures.
And wished I have the chance to go home for me to share to you my laughters. 


You were my very best friend since the beginning of my existence.
To you I open up every piece of my failures and success.
You were my great fan even though I look up to you more than  anyone else.
You always cheer me up in times when  nobody could ever understand.




I know I wasn't the perfect daughter for you.
But you kept me motivated to reach my dreams, saying " In yourself you must believe".
You were always so proud of me, no matter what I do.
You never made me feel inferior about the things I can hardly achieve.





10 years without you, Ma...
It's killing me everytime I think of it.
I can't suppress all the tears in my eyes...
And each of those moments, I feel the pain like it's anew.






Happy Mother's Day, Ma!
10 years without you.... But you never fail to inspire me.
I love you...and FOREVER will do.








P.S.  I just hope all the people who are lucky enough to still be with their moms, will cherish and forever be grateful to the most special woman in our lives. This one is also dedicated to all mothers whom I look up to.
My heartfelt thanks goes to my grandma- Lola Alice, who served as my second mom after Mama's death.  As well to my aunts who continued to support me and believed in me in spite of my shortcomings. I love you all! :)

Realities of LIFE

Would there ever be FAIRNESS in this world?
As I always hear (and experience).... Life is indeed, UNFAIR.
Sad, but so TRUE.


Other people might just see you not as a person but just merely something to be used of.
Like a milking cow that they can suck up for all of it's nutrients without any limit.
Like a bank where they can draw out unlimited number of transactions without investing not even a single cent for a deposit.
Like a robot with no emotion--not even a chance of dropping a tear in the eye.
Like a plain dumb creature that's so helpless and left without any choice or option.


Now, what could this possibly mean?
Am I destined to be toyed around, looked down, or treated as an accessory?
For until this day, I don't completely understand the mystery that is still covering my fate.
Where do I begin?
And where do I end?


Life is starting to get gloomy and gloomy each day.
Is it worth fighting for?
Is it so precious to cherish a life that has existed in a complicated way?
Struggling to survive all the trials that I am facing.
But if I cannot take this anymore, then, I'll end up being just like everyone else--a LOSER.
Or rather be someone that's brittle enough to scatter...like a glass that is easy to break--a FAILURE.


Seems like there's no end to this...unless,  I END it myself.
We'll see how it goes.